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HUNTINGTON BEACH

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I FOUND MY SKATEBOARD IN A SALVATION BIN
SLEEP UNDER A STAIRWELL OF A SHORT STAY INN
BORED WITH THE SNORT NOW THE NEEDLE TURNS ME ON
PRETTY GOOD AT TYING MY OWN ARM

GOT A CELL PHONE AND A BACKPACK FOR A PILLOW
I’D CALL MY MOM BUT SHE’D FIRE OUT A BELLOW
“GET BACK IN TREATMENT ONLY THEN CAN WE TALK”
HER THICKENED SKIN SHADOWS A BROKEN HEART

OUT HERE ON HUNTINGTON BEACH
WHERE MERMAIDS AND FAERIE
AND SELKIES ALL MEET
AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT WHEN I TURN 18
MAYBE I’LL WANT TO GET CLEAN

MY FRIEND TOMMY IS MY PARTNER IN GRIME
HE TALKS UP OXYS BUT HIS TRACK MARKS DON’T LIE
HE SOLD MY SCREEN AND EARBUDS FOR SURE
I HATED HIM TIL HE SHARED THE SCORE

THE SUN SETS THROUGH THE SMOKE OF MY CIGARETTE
MY STAIRWELL VIEW IS AS GOOD AS IT GETS
BROKEN YOUNG SOULS CONVERGE AT A BONFIRE
FLOODING THEIR MINDS WITH DENIAL

OUT HERE ON HUNTINGTON BEACH
WHERE MERMAIDS AND FAERIE
AND SELKIES ALL MEET
AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT WHEN I TURN 18
MAYBE I’LL WANT TO GET CLEAN

I SHOULD BE KNOCKING ON THE DOOR
OF THOSE WHO LIVE IN HIGHER PLACES
AND OFF THIS MERRY GO ROUND


SATURDAY IS WITH A CONCERT ON THE PIER
PEOPLE ARE GENEROUS WITH FOOD AND BEER
NAPPY AND TAN I FIT RIGHT IN
MY NEW YORKER CHARM IS ENTERTAINING TO THEM

BUT WHEN IT’S OVER I BEG THEM TO STAY
THAT’S WHEN THEY FIGURE I’VE LIED THROUGHOUT THE DAY
SELF HATRED AND TEARS IN MY EYES
I CALL MY MOTHER BUT THE DEMON ARRIVES

OUT HERE ON HUNTINGTON BEACH
WHERE MERMAIDS AND FAERIE
AND SELKIES ALL MEET
AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT WHEN I TURN 18
MAYBE I’LL WANT TO GET CLEAN


Guitars: Jack Petruzzelli

Piano and Synth: Rich Lamb

Bass: Jesse Williams

Drums, Synth and Vox: RP

Recorded at New Calcutta Recordings and VlyLand Recordings Produced and mixed by Rich Pagano
Mastered by Fred Kevorkian